All day for some reason I was really struggling with trusting in God. Now that I know I am going on this Passport Immersion program my mind keeps going to all of the money that I need to raise. So today I picked up a devotional at a local bookstore. Jesus Calling by Sarah Young. It has a little devotion for the date, and it is what Sarah experienced God telling her through scriptures. I read March 31 and here is what she said…

            “TASTE AND SEE THAT I AM GOOD. The more intimately you experience Me, the more convinced you become of My goodness. I am the Living One who sees you and longs to participate in your life. I am training you to find Me in each moment and to be a channel of My loving Presence. Sometimes my blessings come to you in mysterious ways: through pain and trouble. At such times you can know My goodness only through your trust in Me. Understanding will fail you, but trust will keep you close to Me. Thank Me for the gift of My Peace, a gift such immense proportions that you cannot fathom its depth or breadth. When I appeared to My disciples after the resurrection, it was Peace that I communicated first of all. I knew this was their deepest need: to calm their fears and clear their minds. I also speak Peace to you, for I know your anxious thoughts. Listen to Me! Tune out other voices, so that you can hear Me more clearly. I designed you to dwell in Peace all day, every day. Draw near to Me; receive My Peace.” (Psalm 34:8; Genesis 16:13-14; John 20:19; Colossians 3:15.)

            How can I possibly for a second doubt and not trust that God is going to provide? I thank Him for allowing me to pick up this book. I was blinded by my anxious thoughts. I do not need to understand how He is going to provide the funds for me to go. I need to fully trust and be at peace, and know that God has everything under control!

            I keep thinking about this trip and it excites me so much! I cannot wait to see what God has planned. I know that he is going to do amazing things, through and with the people we are working with. I just am coming to the realization that I am going to be broken down step by step through this whole process of the trip.

God Bless,

Beckah