"When everything falls apart your arms hold me together. When everything falls apart you're the only hope for this heart..." (Everything Fails by Fee)



"Can you see my hands open, I am waiting just ahead. And you think you need it all now; but you needed me instead." (Shine On by Needtobreath)ʉ۬

This past week I had to make a very BIG decision. I have a job working on Sundays. I don't work that much... but I pick up extra days when I can. The days that I pick up are normally on Saturdays or Sundays of the opposite weekend. I some how got myself schedule the next 5 Sundays in a row. So while I was driving to school 2 weeks ago I felt this anxiety and had this thought that I need to quit my job. Random!! I didn't understand because my job is a good paying job, and I haven't ever had a problem with my work before. Heck, I even enjoy my job! But I continued praying about this anxiousness that was in my heart, because I didn't understand it. So I decided to try getting off work that upcoming Sunday but I couldn’t. So I went to work... that night I came home and cried to my mom saying to her how upset I was that I didn't have the opportunity to go to church and that I hate missing it! I didn't understand why I was feeling this way... Like why was it suddenly hitting me?Then I tried to get off this past Sunday the 6th. I was able to find someone, but she wasn't allowed to cover for me because it was going to be overtime for her. After hearing that I decided this was the sign that I was praying for. I just couldn’t continue working Sundays. It is the day I go and worship my GOD with my fellow believers. I called my work on Tuesday and gave them my 2 weeks notice. Then I went and talked to my boss. He told me that I could actually have off the 6th! But I had already resigned. I took this as another sign that I did the right thing. Because if I would have gotten off I wouldn’t have quit. So I went to church on Sunday! I was so excited to be there. I prayed before I went in saying... "God show me truth today." My pastor spoke about how Satan tries to distract us when we are doing God's will. He tries to get us down and make us stray away from God. I realized this is what my job was doing to me, and God placed it upon my heart to leave. So that I can grow more in my faith. I am oddly the happiest person right now that I have quit my job. I know I should probably be freaking out because I am jobless and going on this trip in September, but I'm not! Peace has come upon me and I know that God will provide another job for me. One that won't distract me from following Him and growing. All I can say now is HERE I AM LORD, USE ME! Show me what my next steps are! I'm going to take one day at a time.

 "Therefore, my dear brothers and sisters, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain." (1 Corinthians 15:58)



"My son, if you accept my words
 and store up my commands within you,ʉ۬turning your ear to wisdom
 and applying your heart to understanding
indeed, if you call out for insight and cry aloud for understanding,
and if you look for it as for silver
 and search for it as for hidden treasure,
then you will understand the fear of the Lord
 and find the knowledge of God. ʉ۬For the Lord gives wisdom; from his mouth come knowledge and understanding." (Proverbs 2:1-6)